Four Years Old

On her birthday, she had  daycare in the morning. At the end of the daycare, a caretaker usually gives me a slip of paper describing what she ate, whether she pooped and one paragraph journal of how she was for the day. On that day, it said something like this in Japanese: “Today was Kiko’s birthday. She was excited to tell everyone about her birthday. I (the caretaker) asked what she wanted to be when she grew up. She said she wanted to be like mommy”.

Parenting has ups and downs. There are some days that I feel I’m doing an alright job as a mother and there are some days that I get haunted by the thought that I might be screwing up or completely ruining Kiko’s life because of what I’m doing or not doing. It was one of those days that made me happy because she said she wanted to be like me! It was such an honor. I know you might think that every little girl says that, but it made me happy nonetheless.

娘が4歳になりました。

これまでは毎年お誕生日会をやっていたのですが、今年はお休み。

家族でゆっくり過ごすことにしました。

カップケーキを作って、一緒に飾りつけ。

保育園の先生に、大きくなったらマミーみたいになりたいってこっそり言っていたと教えてもらって、

なんかほっこり。

嬉しかったです。